Why I behave the way I do at events
Whenever I go for an event, I eventually find myself being
forced to have conversations with people, and even though I love the people I
meet, I sometimes just want to sit in a corner and pretend there’s no one
around me. There are three types of events I go for.
One: The kind I agree to go for, to meet friends (example:
Say it with coke or TweetupSL)
Two: Events I feel obliged to go to, or must go to because
my presence is expected (example: lunch with the family or certain friends)
Three: Assignments (example: press conferences)
My thoughts about events depend on the type of event. So in
hopes of making people realize why I’m awkward at events, I’ll put it down in
writing. Why do I behave the way I do at events. One of the biggest complaints
is that I don’t actually do anything. I don’t talk or socialize. I just stand
or sit in one place and look lost and scared. This is because I’m busy with my
thoughts and answering the questions put forth by my brain.
(I’m not crazy. I just have a lot of conversation with
myself. A lot of people do this, and some say, the behavior of the majority
defines what is considered normal)
I haven’t really thought of the reasons, so this post is
mostly a way for me to understand my own behavior or thoughts.
(These are separate thoughts. They are not things I say
aloud to people)
Type one
When I accept the invitation: OMG an event! I’ll meet my
friends. I have no work on that day. I can totally go for it and have fun
A few days later: Maybe I made a wrong decision. Is there
any way I can fake transport problems?
A few days before the event: Oh god! This is the worst
decision I have ever made. When will I learn that I don’t do well at events!
Gah!
The day of the event: I can’t do this. I’m too shy and
scared and always so tongue-tied. I’ll just not show up, and pretend I forgot or
something.
As soon I get to the venue: What if no one I know is here
and no one speaks to me so I have to just stand in a corner and everyone thinks
I’m an idiot or a pervert?
At the event: I’ll just rummage through my bag, find my
phone, check the time, put it back in my bag and repeat the process
Close to the end of the event: This is quite fun, and the
people are nice and I should totally do this again
When leaving the place: Nooo! The night should never end. I
love these people!
Once I get home: I actually survived it. Go, Shailee!
Type two
When I ‘accept’ the invitation: God! Why do I have to be
related to/friends with these people! They hate me and I hate them and no one
will talk to me so there’s no use in going
A few days later: I’ll just pretend I don’t have to go and
avoid talking with anyone who might be at the event. Maybe they’ll forget I
exist
A few days before the event: Oh lord! Every single time, the
same jokes, the same food, the same people. It would save us all time and
energy if we just watch a video of the previous event. Gah!
The day of the event: I feel sick. My entire body hurts! I
think it’s the flu. My body is warm too.
As soon as I get to the venue: Just smile at people. If they
come close to you, walk away. You can do this.
At the event: These are the most boring people I’ve ever
met. Honestly! Drunk after a single cocktail? Jesus, dude! So lame. And yap yap
yap! It’s always about them, and what they are doing and their love lives!
Close to the end of the event: Shailee! Wake up! Keep your
eyes open. Do not fall asleep now. There, stare at your phone screen. The light
may wake you up. Just nod and say yes to whatever they say. This is the last
bit. You’ll go home soon.
When leaving the place: OMG! Maybe there is a god and this
god actually helped me survive the day!
Once I get home: Worst. Day. Ever.
Type three
When I’m asked to go for the event: Oooh I love these sort
of events. They are so much of fun and you can write so much about it
A few minutes later: Crap! I have to go alone. Maybe I’ll
just procrastinate and then conveniently miss the event
A few minutes before leaving for the event: Shit shit shit!
I hate my job
As soon as I get to the venue: Okay, now to pretend I’m
looking for something in my bag, wait for another journalist or photographer
and follow them to where the event is being held
At the event: Hahahaha that guy’s tie! And OMG her accent!
Close to the end of the event: Transport better already be
here! Or I might slaughter someone
Waiting for transport: Okay so I’ll just sit somewhere and
pretend I’m busy tying the story when I’m actually on Twitter. Hahaha that
tweet though. Oh bugger! They may think I’m crazy, sitting alone and laughing
When leaving the place: Which way do I go? Forget it! I’ll
just wait for someone to leave and then follow them out.
Once I get to office: Meh! That wasn’t bad. The perks of the
job!
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